Jeanna Shepard

Leave-Taking

We were unprepared for the pain of this last Leave-taking.

We were unprepared for the pain of this last
Leave-taking. She’s fifty-two now: you’d think
We’d learned to let her go, slip into our past—
A past so huge that the now is but a blink:
Just a drop in that pool heading down the sink
And leaving us smaller, stranded, held here fast.

Covid returned her, reversing the clock
And installing romance: her childhood came back—
Our lives bloomed again, undoing the lock
That is ongoing time, and turning our lack
Into largesse, restoring our stock.

Your child is your child, whatever her age.
With her this year, we escaped the cage
Of our eighty years, we slipped through the bars,
And the night all about us brightened with stars.

Can this rebirth last? Of course it cannot.
But the miracle is, it happened at all.
Time will return, no eluding its pall,
No fountain of youth, no outwitting our lot.
We’ll pass as we must, in time’s forward swell,
Yet we’ve been blessed: it goes backwards as well.

 

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Submitted by Anonymous (not verified) on Tue, 01/26/2021 - 10:31

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Eileen Engley Somerville

I really like this line: "We’ll pass as we must, in time’s forward swell." I am grieving the loss of a companion pet and it echoes my current will to move forward. Thank you for your words.

Submitted by Anonymous (not verified) on Tue, 01/26/2021 - 13:22

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Carol Edgartown

This is heartbreakingly lovely. We too captured some lightning in a bottle this past year.
Thank you for writing.

Submitted by Anonymous (not verified) on Tue, 01/26/2021 - 17:23

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Tim O'Neal Lorah New York City

Absolutely beautiful Phil. I know how precious the time was for you, Penny and your daughter. We should all be so blessed.

Submitted by Anonymous (not verified) on Wed, 01/27/2021 - 15:34

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Nancy Anderson Vineyard Haven

Eli and I have had our 42-yr-old daughter with us in Vineyard Haven since September, as a Philadelphia covid-refugee. Your poem brings to the fore so clearly the experience of time swelling backwards ... a nice kind of temporary unmooring ... Our daughter has not yet taken leave.

Submitted by Anonymous (not verified) on Sun, 06/20/2021 - 10:29

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Maggie Worboys (Vogel) Craftsbury Common, Vermont

Hi Philip,
Leave-Taking is a wonderful poem-I've always suspected you to have a poet's heart.
Your old friend,
Maggie

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